Being a Step Mom is hard!
So I have wanted to write about this for a while. I had an experience in church a while ago with this. They were asking about how our husbands support us, and I raised my hand and said that my husband supports me with Logan. I said that there are days that I feel like screaming and crying, and that it is hard trying to get through the day sometimes. The lady responded that, that is just part of being a mom. I wanted to yell at her and say no its not. Its not the same at all!
Being a step mom is hard especially when I won't ever have the opportunity to have my own kids. It makes it even harder when you are told "I don't have to listen to you" "you aren't my mom" "I hate you". Or when you are ignored and given dirty looks, and my husband does his best to make it better.
Now there are days when its good and I enjoy being around Logan. We are able to go and do fun things and he wants to be around me.
So if I seem to be spoiling other peoples kids its because I won't ever have the chance with my own. If I seem to cuddle your baby a little longer then most you will understand. When I seem to have a lot of pictures with my nephews its because the only way I get to experience that age is through them.
I hope to one day have a really good relationship with Logan, but for now I will keep trying. There will be days I want to tear my hair out and scream. Those will be the days I spend a lot of time in my room. Then there will be days Logan and I will get along great. So the next time you know someone is a step mom or step dad don't assume they know how it is to be a mom or dad. It is completely different then having your own kids.